Hello!

It’s been a while. This update is probably a bit boring, because nothing really changed. Still lifting, still overeating and gaining, still an emotional eater. See, nothing interesting to see here, lol!

I still try to start counting calories sometimes but it always goes to shit, so to say. I panic and basically binge just to feel like I AM ALLOWED TO EAT. It’s sad. I don’t know what to do. Oh, except the obvious which is to put my big girl panties on and get back to taking care of myself. Sounds so easy. Because it is. I’ve done it before. Yet somehow I don’t seem to trust myself, or whatever. Something is not right, that’s for sure. I haven’t quite figured it out yet.

Not in my best of states

I feel pretty crappy right now. Aside from feeling blah and even having some kind of nervous breakdown today, feeling shaky and having chest pain and heart palpitations, this whole “eating well” thing and “losing weight” isn’t really happening at the moment. I do exercise, that’s routine thank God and I miss it when I don’t do it. But the eating… I’m still very much an emotional eater. Unfortunately. Now I’m also stressed out because we’re going to Sweden in about 20 days or so. Money has to be saved, things arranged, then the fear of flying, and and and…

I know, I should stop whining. But this blog is a place for me to share the good and the bad, and to get stuff of my chest. I needed to vent a bit.

Thank God for everything.

Can I have the 80’s back, please?

Classy video, great effects, that hairstyle and that outfit! We need all this awesomeness back. 😉
Love, love, love this song though. The decade of the best music. And toys, clothes, makeup, just everything. 😛